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2005-04-18 20:30:06 ET dont know anything anymore. i dont know myself anymore. i am going thru such hardcore shit right now, it doesnt even seem to be real. am i caught in my own nightmare. everyone is telling me the same thing. the more i hear it the more i hate myself and wonder how anyone can even look at me. why cant i be an old woman who has already gone thru this shit life and be in my deathbed. i thought this shit whud end with everything else, yet it creeps up on me everytime. how cant i talk to my mom when she just thinks im feeling sorry for myself, why cant she see it goes way deeper than anything remotely in that category. |
