| Would you like smoking or non-smoking? 2003-06-05 21:59:54 ET |
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Phoo...rough day...
I had my first of two orientation classes today at GEBBCA. It went pretty well, although I think my teacher is going to be tough. This is good, though, as I know he won't send me to the state board test unless I am totally ready. I hope to be one of his best students, but I fear that I will only be average or a little below.
Also, he said that the apprentice license takes about four to five months to process, and you can't start at the salon until you receive it...so I may be stuck at Starbucks longer than I'd like to be. Ugh...i hope that lady at Festoon calls me back soon...if I don't hear back a week and a half from now, I will march my happy ass in there and talk to SOMEONE. grrrrrr
Then I got to work, and my supervisor had completely forgotten that I would be late. She had said before, when I told her about this, that she would clock me in at 2pm, and I wouldn't be late. She said it didn't matter as long as *she* knew about it. Well...she forgot...and even called my house wondering where I was. dammit. But it's ok...she left a note for the store manager telling her that I forgot to clock in...
...and I got yelled at for being *too* nice, and going the extra mile for a customer...phoo.
anyhow...as far as the smoking thing, I am quitting tomorrow. I've only had six today...which is less than half of my normal amount. it gets harder towards the end of the day, when it's nearing time for my second dose of Zyban. My mom said that I could call her for support if I need it. Ugh...sooo hard...if there are any of you reading this who smoke once in a while, be careful, man...don't get addicted...in fact, stop now, because if you don't you'll have to go through this shit, and the longer you smoke, the harder it is.
I couldn't imagine being a 30+ year smoker and quitting...I've only been smoking for 6-7 years, and this shit is FUCKING difficult. you keep coming up with excuses to smoke, like, "I'll quit tomorrow" "I'll cut back" "just once more...for old time's sake" "It's ok if I only do it once or twice a day" "It's ok to do it in large groups of smokers or when I'm drinking." The more you give into these excuses, the harder it will be to kick the habit. I haven't officially quit, yet and I've already made all of those excuses. But I know it's just my addiction talking.
It will be hard, too, cuz Loki's quitting date isn't until next wed. But he will help me not to smoke, too...I can do it. It will just be difficult...I need to get some gum, hehe...gum helps a little.
Ok...enough of this. Time for bed. Got another orentation class tomorrow. :]
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| 2003-06-04 13:11:19 ET |
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[ mood | giddy ]
[ music | Try to Forget - Depeche Mode ]
Ok, so I spent all day watching shit like "ShipMates", "Maury Povich" and "Ricci Lake". I feel very dirty, haha.
Loki called this morning, and apparently, they have to have a lay over in Chicago for an hour or so, so they won't be back until at least 3:30, but Dylan suspects later...which SUCKS MY BUTT because he won't be back before I have to go to work!!! :[ Dammit...
The other thing that sucks is that I have a FULL day tomorrow. I have my orientation at school, and then I have to go straight to work. bah! No rest for the wicked. (PS: working a full day on your feet in New Rocks is not fun).
I was hoping to give Ashby a bath today, but it's wayyy too cold. It wouldn't be an issue if we had a bath tub, but we have to bathe her outside with a garden hose, so we only do it on pretty hot days.
GAHHHH...I hope I get to see him before I have to go to work. If not, I told my supervisor that we have to get out SUPA early tonight...maybe even earlier than last night (9:12) if possible. Hopefully he'll be landing in about a half hour...ugh...gotta go hop in the shower, just in case...
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| Crazy randomness 2003-06-04 00:14:54 ET |
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WOOHOOOOO and stuff...boy will be back tomorrow!! :]
Turned out to be ok tonight at work. I forgot that Krystal opens up when she's around Regan, so it wasn't as akward as I thought it might be.
Freaked out, earlier, but feeling a little bit better. It's a long story, and I don't feel like getting into it right now, but hopefully things will all work out and the person in question will understand.
Which brings me to just now. I just organized my billing schedule. I hope I stick to it, and don't spend my money on frivolous things, anymore. Plus I need to nag my store manager to give me some more hours. Hello, I need to pay rent *and* eat?
The lady at Festoon hasn't called me back, yet. I left another voicemail today, but we'll see. If she doesn't call me back, I'll have to march my ass down there and be like, "I AM AMAZON! I WILL NOT BE IGNORED!! MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!" and if *that* doesn't work, I'll find out where she lives and follow her home. I'll wait until she's just about to fall asleep and then I'll scream, "HIRE JYNX AS AN APPRENTICE!!!!!!" and disappear into the shadows. She will then assume it was an omen and call me back immediately.
....ok, probably not.
If that doesn't work, I'll have to go to Barbarella (another salon) and be like "PLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE????????????????????? I love yewwwwwwwwwwwwwww" Which reminds me...I think I saw the owner, now that I think about it. Last time I saw her, she had black hair with some straight synth extensions, but the girl I saw resembles her, but has brown hair...damn...next time I see her, I will have to be all, "So, I just registered with GEBBCA, and I'm looking for an apprenticeship. I've tried calling Festoon twice, but no call-back, yet." and she'll be all, "Oh, well...fuck Festoon, come apprentice with me. I'm better than them." and...stuff...
OK, JYNX! ENOUGH WITH THE FANTASIES ALREADY!
Truthfully, I'm just bored. I'm trying to waste as much time as possible, because I have too much crap on my mind...well, only that major freakout thing I mentioned earlier, and I don't wanna dwell...but if i stop typing I'll dwell...and it will suck...I know it sounds like I'm dwelling now, but I'm really not. I'm just mindlessly typing away...type type type...being all...mindless...and stuff. Yeah...uhm...
LOKI COMES BACK TOMORROW!!!! YAYAYAYAYAY!!! :]
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| 2003-06-03 08:50:18 ET |
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I can't stop coughing today...I feel like crap. We're closing, tonight, with someone who hasn't closed in a very long time, if at all, and it makes me want to stay home. There are two people besides my store manager that I don't like working with: Ryan the condescending prick, and Krystal the straight faced anti-social no fun having chick. She's not painful to work with, but the shift goes by SOOO much slower because she's not friendly...and she makes it really akward.
Boi comes home tomorrow ::bounces:: so excited :]
Whelp...that's all folks :P Life is boring, atm ;]
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| that's fucked up... 2003-06-02 10:49:59 ET |
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I had this horrible nightmare that I had an affair with the guy who played Mr. Smith in The Matrix, and a few days into it the guy started picking up other girls, then he did a new form of coke (that only exists in my dream), so I ran from him, back to my parents' house.,,,where I found out I was pregnant...so I called him, because I had nobody else to call...and he came over with this "doctor" who injected me with this stuff that's supposed to make you miscarry...but he poked the needle in the wrong way, so it was a bloody mess...I was scared, and so I tried to hold him, but he pushed me a way and gestured that I was getting blood on him. So I asked the doctor if he would make my bleeding stop, he said "yes" and took some bandaidy stuff...the white guaze pads you get when you have to get a shot...he put it over the wound, but I passed out because I'd lost so much blood. Right before I woke up, IRL, it was like I was watching a movie, and I saw him standing over me, with an expression I couldn't read, and the doctor looking shocked and confused.
Ugh...fucked up feeling, dude.
Anyhow...film festival was fun. drank beer and watched "The General" with Buster Keaton, and watched the silent version of "Peter Pan" which was awesome.
My Loki called me again...right as everything was winding down, which was cool because they all left so I didn't have to be trying to hear over voices.
Anyhow...I'm STARVING...and I have some more cleaning to do...if i could fucking WALK...i have blisters the size of acorns on the bottoms of my feet because my shoes died yesturday...the holes in my soles go all the way to the sock, now. :[ I'm debating wearing my new rocks today...well, not debating, I don't have any choice. :P
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