2005-06-20 20:05:19 ET

I am really sick and tired of people thinking that just becuase I had a bad fucking year, that I don't care about anything any more.

First of all my father started hitting me agian and when I went to swim class my friends asked me about my scabs and bruises. Then Joanna offers to have me move in, and my mother tells me get out of the house before I end up taking care of dad for the rest of life. My pearents split up becuase of me and my bother has to live in a broken home. Then my Mom can't afford health insurance any more. Then I spend $650+ on a home I live in for a week. So when Joanna goes psycho on my ass, I have no health insurce, no job, no money and no place to live. So then I have to spend my days waiting in line for gov't help, then when I get that help, I get, the flu, fallowed by brochitis, fallowed by the stomache flu, fallowed by a months worth of antibiotics that don't work for strep, that turns into strep,mono,and toncilitis,which takes me out of school and work for a month, and then comes the last two weeks of school, and then I get fired for not having a penis.

So right now I am still in school scheduled to get an '05 deploma.

I sorry if my life doesn't fit into what you thought it would be right now
but I probably have more goals, and plans for my future than any mother fucker who graduted on time.

2005-06-28 13:44:51 ET

I once knew a shy girl who was so immersed in school and enlightenment that she didnt care how she looked or if she was ill, she had little interest in boys or (fake) friends. This girl had dreams of becoming a lawyer and a great house wife. She lived in an abusive unwelcoming home and she got through it because of her faith. I know this girl would have done everything in her power to keep fighting, but unfortunately I lost her to a virus.

2005-06-29 19:47:25 ET

well you know its kind of hard to fight when your mouth and throat hurt so bad that you can't stand to eat, it hard to live off 5-10 calories day you get from drinking liquids. I'm sorry that I didn't die triing to go school,but there is a point when your body says stop.

2005-07-08 22:27:33 ET

I understand that things got hard but you know you had options that you never even considered you saw a cop-out, you used it. you know that I have been someone who no matter what is there for you for five years. you never called me or tried to talk to me about it before I started getting mean with you.

2005-07-12 11:31:19 ET

I called you alot
You were just

2005-10-14 20:17:03 ET

yeah I thought that might be your reply

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