Beer and Pretzels: Breakfast of Champions    2002-08-13 06:56:48 ET
Went out yesterday drinking. Came back 3:40. Fell asleep at work again.

What kind of Drug Addict are you?

... I love you Mary Jaaaaane...........

:: Listening to: Cypress Hill & Sonic Youth - I love you MaryJane ::

 Victory not Vengeance    2002-08-10 14:08:53 ET
Today I went and met my bestest friend in the world Ariel at the beach. We sat at Mike's Place (which is a shoreline pub) and drank beer. It was fun. It seems everyone is going all regressional. It seems that after 3 years compulsory service, all you wanna do is go back to 10th grade. Hmph. Anyways, so that was cool, later I went on to visit Granma, who's kinda alone since grandpa died...

On the way back Noa called and asked if I'd like to go grab a bite downtown Tel-Aviv at the Burger King (I dunno why BK). Anyway, we (Aya, Moshik, Noa and I) ended up going someplace else (yum! Pizza!).. That was yum. Uhm, fun.

These last two days have been rather hallucinatory for me. I haven't slept much this whole week, and I've been drinking pretty much daily. I don't geerally eat much anymore, so basically, I'm living off an alcohol diet, with sleep deprivation. I'm wondering if that has to do with these sudden feelings of uber-ickiness I'm getting all the time.

It's weird, a month ago I felt like I was on the brink of a personal breakthrough. Emotionally, artistically, spiritually, you name it. Now, I feel like I'm on the edge of a cliff, holding on for dear life.. And I don't know what's wrong with me.

:: Listening to: VNV Nation - Beloved ::


 This shell we call our lives.    2002-08-09 19:12:41 ET
Went to the Lilienblum 25 (again) tonight. First I went to Liron's place, and we watched Buffalo 66' (well, I watched, Liron seemed kinda bored with it). Then we went to pick up Amir and go to Tel Aviv. On the way we picked up Noa from the festinakash extreme rock festivities etc. When we entered the club Amir and I were called back by the security guard, who did a body search on us for drugs, saying that the girl we came in with (i.e. Noa) was caought last week with some fellows who did some hard drugs, and that if we'd get caught it's straight to the police, and blah blah blah. hehe heh. That was funny. Anyway, I drank a ton of crappy alcohol in the Lili, and by the time i was ready to leave, suddenly Dj Erez put Maschine Eisenbass and we all started dancing like madmen. Yay. Then I drove Noa home to the evil Petah Tiqva.
Right after dropping off Noa, I felt a sudden urge to crawl up into a ball, wither away, and disappear. Not die, just implode... into oblivion. I hate spontanious depressions. I don't think there's much wrong with me. It's really the cry of our whole generation, to have someone that understands us, and is still willing to hold us close to their hearts. I feel so lonely.
I sure hope this is all shitty-alcohol induced.

 No words can describe that which was ...    2002-08-08 01:20:06 ET
Last night. Luckily, Noa has better written expression capabilities than me.Ugh.

 Last night (this morning?)    2002-08-03 05:12:42 ET
Yeesh, what a night. 10 beers and that's just the begining. Was a terrific evenin'.. started out racing through esoteric streets in what I like to call "The Badlands" (aka Petach Tiqva area) with Noa and Ladyorion wee that was fun. Later at the Lielinblum I got pissed on who knows what alcohol they serve claiming it's beer... Don't remember much else.. I was wasted and kinda danced ..uhh.. close(?) ..uhm.. (too close) to some guys. (I'm straight I tell ya!) On the bright side I found out that Observe and Control are having a concert on the 17th of August at the Heinekin Club. Yay. We go! Thassit for now.

Addendum 23:45 UTC - I just came back from Jerusalem. All my friend'shave been drinking and smoking since noon. They weree sooo fucked up, it was so funny. Had a great time. Sleep now.

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