| Gothly moments :P 2003-10-05 21:36:26 ET |
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I went to the second showing of John Doe in the City tonight. It went even better than last night. I think Waylon deserves the biggest pat on the back for doing such an awesome job on his movie...not to mention that he's in an upcoming film festival at UC Berkeley, too. I'll post more info about that later...I'm not sure where the flyer got to.
Ugh...after the premiere, there was going to be a party at the place I had with dylan. I thought about going, but I really didn't want to be out that terribly late...not to mention that my sad energy might bring people down. So I decided that it would be in everyone's best interests if I headed home.
I was sitting in the bart station, listening to Nine Inch Nails, and upon boarding the train caught my reflection in the window...and realized with the expression I had on my face at that moment, that I really looked like the stereotypical goth. A kind of angsty/sad...whatever.
Anyhow...I think I need some sleep, dude...rough day today. Mmmm turmoil...
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| WARNING - Super emo post 2003-10-05 06:47:52 ET |
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Parents are on their way...moving all of my stuff into storage today...ugh. have to go back to my parents' house for a little while...god fucking dammit...I hell of didn't want to move home...I have no choice right now, though. The friend I was thinking about moving in with has been really bad at getting back to me...I don't think this person understands the urgency of the situation...which is fine, because she has her new boyfriend and everything...so she is distracted...but whatever...SHE NEEDS TO CALL ME (you know who you are...so CALL ME, LADY!! :P)
Today, I can officially say that I am quite possibly the saddest person in the world. I no longer have my boyf that i loved so much...nor do i have my puppy...or my own place...or, really any place for that matter...i lost my dignity, and I'm very ready to just give up...but I know I can't...AND GOD FUCKING DAMMIT if that doesn't hurt, too...ugh...i dunno...i guess I should stop whining and be happy about my job...and that I'm lucky enough to have parents that will take me back for a little while...and be there for me through thick and thin...and some awesome friends that will let me cry on their shoulder when the spotlight should be on them...
Anyhow...enough whining out of me...
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| 2003-09-29 20:16:21 ET |
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so, i have an appointment to go see place in downtown berkeley tonight...it's two blocks up from Telegraph, which is totally a cool area, i think. ::Keeping fingers crossed:: I hope this will be an ok place...
Anyhow...things otherwise are ok...not as bad as they could be....it's hard for sure...but things could definately be worse...still toen apart inside, but am managing to keep a smile on my face somehow.
ugh...no matter how i try to ignore it, i still hate it...bah.
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| 2003-09-29 07:57:25 ET |
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Fucking fuck...I;m almost finished packing...and i have no place to go...every place I've checked out has been in a sucky neighborhood...the two people i was thinking about moving in with are both not calling me back...one who is moving, too...the other i may move in with...DOES ANYONE UNDERSTAND THE URGENCY OF THIS SITUATION?? I CANT MOVE BACK TO SAN LEANDRO! I SIMPLY CANNOT AFFORD THE COMMUTE FINANCIALLY AND EMOTIONALLY!!! Jiminy Christmas...someone save me...
::sighs:: I need a cigarette...
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| Bah 2003-09-26 20:16:24 ET |
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I wanted to thank everyone for their kind words and support the past few days...but i just couldn't stand to see those posts anymore so I deleted them.
I'm at a place now where I'm starting to feel ok again, and it's only because I haven't been dwelling about things as much as I usually do...it's a curse, i think too much...
Anyhow...finding an affordable place in a decent neighborhood is very difficult. I have a lead, but we shall see how that works out...
Well...that's all for now, i guess.
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