| this is not a love song 2005-04-27 11:36:49 ET |
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school is almost over.
3 weeks and 3 days.
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its taken long enough.. my time to celebrate comes soon.
it seems almost bittersweet, to say goodbye to a place i have been in for so long.
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| i dont drink 2005-04-23 20:06:16 ET |
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tonight i did something amazing.. i left the house with someone other than James!
suprising, yes..
i went out with some old friends.. at first i was having some "im freaked out to the point of a panic attack" feelings.. because of being around people i didnt know.. or didnt regularly see.
my best friend.. who ive never seen drunk.. got drunk.. she seems very loud and out there when she is drinking, almost like someone else.. not bad really, just different.
her and another friend somehow got me to drink 1.5 shots of .. somethin.. and a gulp of "blueberry vodka" agh.. i dont drink.. i wasnt acting any different than usual, but i felt a little more relaxed around the unknown people. id like to do it again (see my freinds that is, not drink) but it almost doesnt seem like me.. is it bad that i am such a shut in? unfortunately the solidairidy causes me depression. perhaps friends are what i need right now.
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